It’s Monday again already and I’m finally starting to understand that ‘Monday’s aren’t the best’ feeling. After working in retail, teaching and hospitality, I never really thought Mondays were awful, or horrible, or anything like that. But now, now I do get it.
But anyway, I digress. What I’m trying to say is… I’ve been feeling quite sad again recently. Which is why these blog posts have slowed, why the ‘gram captions have been a little down, and why I’ve been a non-responsive, naughty friend.
This is all due to some big things going on, and some non-existent ‘I’m creating-them’ problems. Conor and I had a rocky weekend (which I guess is to be expected in relationships where both parties juggle mental health issues), the fact that I have been making a biiiiig career decision, and the fact I’m generally sometimes just a sad person who can’t help being sad.
Buuuuuuuut, but but, the glory of being a high-functioning depressive (though it has it’s pitfalls, too), is that I’m still goin’ strong, battling – quite well- through the days, I’m still hanging out with cute people and trying to enjoy myself. Each and every depressive spiral or dip, generally, gets easier through experience.
So, some news?!
I have a new job!
You can call me Rachel Social and Digital Content Manager Ross now. Nice. I start next month! ^.^
On Saturday I attended the CEVA conference
I have the best best friend. Ever. Period.
I guess that’s not exactly new news, but it’s worth saying. If you’re having a cry-sad-cry day, give Gee a call. She’ll listen to you cry over your silly drama, and then take you food shopping (in the process you may get a speeding ticket but w/e bad days happen, right?).
I just wanted to check in with you all, and let you know I’m still here, and yes, I’m a little depressed but I’m fully functioning and not in any danger of disappearing anytime soon.
P.S. It’s totally okay to talk about mental health. I find it super tricky to talk to individual people sometimes, even when it’s the people closest to me. It somehow seems way scarier talking to one person than it is talking about things to hundreds of people on the internet. I think we all need to realise that everybody has their own ways of expression, and that’s okay.
P.P.S. it’s also totally recommended to sit atop some big rocks and watch the sunset to help you make a decision.